note of whats to come

just so everyone that reads this blog is aware, i will be leaving for ireland on sunday. so officially this site will be updated when i get a chance with info from my trip. for instance i may inform you all that i am alive in well... disapointing to some, exciting for others. but really this site may actually have interesting blogs in it for once...

which way please

today i sat contemplating many things. one question that keeps me occupied in thought is, are our destinies predetermined? or do the choices we make everyday alter the rest of our destiny? we have free choice and will, and some will argue that God ultimately knows what we will choose thus our destiny would be predetermined, but what about changing our minds? was the original decision the right one, or the second one, or maybe when we switched back? if i choose something really bizarre tomorrow, out of character even for me, would that have been predetermined, like if i decided to buy a cowboy hat... not likely to happen but i could decide that i'm sure? not too sure... and i would really like the chance to treat life like one of those choose your own story story books, where you can cheat and read all possible outcomes and then decide the one you like the most.

once again cobourg is dumb

so a big plastic factory in my town went up in flames today. spreading tons of toxic gas into our atmosphere, our breathing air and the air of many towns east of our town. for those of you that don't know our town of cobourg is neighboured by port hope which has a huge uranium plant. for all of our safety we should have a very precise and effective evacuation plan ready to go. in the case of a disaster like this the town should snap into action and have everyone evacuated to safety. i could see the flames from the fire from 15 km away and i could see the smoke from even further away, a big pillar of jet black smoke. it looked as though we had a nuclear bomb go off in the middle of town. even the average joe would know how toxic the smoke would be. some not all but some of the neighbouring schools were evacuated, some but not all of the neighbouring business's were evacuated, and some but not all of the roads were closed that neighboured this factory were closed, and one section of houses were evacuated but only a small fraction of those that should have been. it is now 7 hours after the start of the fire and my fair town is still deciding if it should evacuate. this should have been decided in the first 20 mins of the fire. we are playing with peoples lives... people are trusting the cobourg officials to make decisions for their safety. plastic fumes are some of the most toxic fumes out there, and the cobourg officials have let people live in these conditions for hours. a carbon monoixide alarm went off at work and one of the employee's took it outside to see where the safer place would be and outside it had a reading of 600... this is far beyond dangerous. i really hope that the town of cobourg is ready to deal with the fall out because of this. guarenteed there are going to be many health issues stemming from this fire and i hope that cobourg is ready to compensate for these health issues. i had to go into town and i could smell the fumes when i entered town and i was upwind from the factory, soon after entering town i got a major headache, and i was only there for a short period of time. i'm sorry for all those people who live on the wrong side of the fire, and i'm especially feeling sorry for those who no choice but to stay in the effected area (ie brookside inmates, elderly). and i definitely feel sorry for those who are now out of a job.

worstest day ever...

so, i travelled to see my good friend meals before she heads back to sudbury. she made me this awsome great dinner... mmm chicken.... mmm cauliflower.... good stuff. so we decided that the best thing to do was go shopping, so we headed out to vaughan mills mall for some serious shopping. so we're driving along in jaun (my sunfire), minding our own business, stopped at a light (cause that's what we do here) and out of no where a huge lexus suv decides that it likes my car so much (sunfire jealousy is very serious i hear) that the suv decided to kiss my car really really hard. much to my surprise not all kisses are good. my poor little sunfire's butt got pushed right in, and now one of its door just doesn't feel up to opening anymore, but do not worry my trunk is making up for it by refusing to close. stupid suv didn't even have a stratch on it.... but i least i know my car attracts rich people, from texas. after a short trip to the shopping centre we like to call collision central and much harassment from hairy, scuzzy, short, drunken tow truck drivers we made it back to meals apartment.... with our trunk flapping in the breeze. now i have a $500 deductable to look forward to, and 4 recently purcahsed out of 6 beverages now soaking into my trunk... i think this has been the best hiccup as of late... now for a night out... walking... poor poor jaun needs a little time to recoup after his lovefest. and don't worry meals and i are only suffering from a minor to mediocore case of whiplash... i will survive!

greatest day ever!

so today was my last day of work... well one of two jobs. i was sad to go, but excited that i only have to work one job from now on. no more doubles!!! last days are always fun, you get to slack off, and you don't care what you do against the rules cause hey, you won't work there in a couple hours. to top it all off a very cute merchandiser hit on me... that was great. today is my last double for a long time... and i'm actually looking forward to doing it. on a more fun note, i got my first rejection letter... apparently if you don't finish the application process to ryerson university they won't let you in... i think i knew that but i had to check for sure, sometimes they lie. now i'm just waiting for the two other rejection letters that i'm sure are to follow... note to self stop applying to school's and then changing your mind. someday i'll be more decisive.... i wonder when that will be? maybe today... oh wait nope.

where does money go?

i'm almost certain there is a black hole sucking my money out of my bank account... does anyone know how to fix it? on a more positive note, i have started having nightmere's about travelling alone... are there still people trying to take over old castles in ireland... cause there were in my dreams.

one angry dwarf

i love my close friends, they are there for me when ever i need them... good or bad. most of the time you know you can count on those people who are really close to you. i'm really blessed with other great friends that i'm not so close to. i have a lot of people who i may not see for a long time and i know i can count on them. i called one of these friends the other night to help me move a piano, and he was soo great. he not only said for sure that he would help me, but he also inlisted 3 more of our friends (some of which i never see anymore) to come and help out. i guess sometimes i don't stop to think about how lucky i am. i complain about being bored or that i don't have the things i want, or that i'm sick of not having a boyfriend... but i shouldn't really be thinking of those things i should be sitting there thinking of how lucky i am to have so many people in my life that love and care about me.... and now i have my piano, so how could i ever be bored again? so thankyou to all my everyday friends, and thankyou to those friends who i lose contact with but every once in a while get to enjoy the full benifits of great friendship!

and a thankyou to leering man

today i learned a couple things... first, don't stress at a job that you are going to be quiting in like a week. second, you can work with an exboyfriend's new girlfriend as long as you keep your distance, but i may be hard to pass on messages to her. and thirdly, the new person will always show up early and make the fact that you are five minutes late again really, really obvious... which brings us back to the frist thing i learned, don't stress at a job that you are going to be quiting in like a week. and a big thankyou to the leering man who didn't leer today... hey leering man are you reading this site or are did someone finally clue you into the better practices of picking up?

caffeine can't be my friend anymore

last night was a rough night at work, i was soo tired and feeling like crap on a stick. so, one staff was going out to timmy's and picked me up a cup of coffee which i was ever so grateful for. well i drank the coffee and had taken my last round of cold and sinus hoping to regain some normal feeling to finish the night of work... do you think that happened? no. it didn't. i left work 1 hour early cause i felt like crap, this was 2hours after the coffee. but once i got home it hit me... all of a sudden my nose felt clear and i was wide awake... the caffeine had kicked in. so i'm up talking to my brother on the phone till midnight and i thought now i can sleep. then my friend phones me and we chat until 2am, and for sure now i could sleep, but no. then i tried on the entire contents of my closet (what was i thinking with some of these clothes) but i still wasn't tired... so i finally took some nyquill in hopes that would lull me to sleep, which it did at 4am. and do you think i slept in this morning? nope... go figure.... naps are a must today.

first contact...

i recieved an email today from my relative in ireland... so excited to hear from them. i wrote them a letter last week to talk to them about me coming on may 1st. it will be sooo much fun to think in 18 days i'll be leaving for ireland for 3 weeks, and i have no official plans. all i know is that someone will pick me up from the airport and that i will have a place to sleep for a couple nights at least. i'm a little nervous travelling alone for the first time, no more safety net... but then its exciting cause i get to go and do as i please without anyone to answer to. yeah! can't wait... now if i could only get rid of this cold....

so head stopped floating

my head came off its advil induced high and became clear when i switched to another brand. not so much fun, but i can accomplish something now, which in view of my recent two day sleeping spell means i have a lot to do which is even less fun. i'm still trying to figure out where i was going with the organization in my apartment but i'm sure it was something spectacular... i'll just have to start again and maybe i'll recognize something. work tonight was fun especially when the drugs started to wear off and i didn't know whether i hurt or was just getting cranky... work was especially fun when i found myself sitting on the floor infront of the oven to watch my scalloped potatoes cook... cause they like to be watched i'm sure of it. ok, i need to get rid of this head problem so i can do something useful in the next week... too much to do to slack off... someone kick my butt into gear for me?

big floating head.

in the past i was against taking medication to make myself feel better when i'm sick. well i am suffering from some unknown sickness that makes my head feel like it is going to explode... some sort of head cold i'm sure. so wanting to try to get some stuff done today i took some cold and sinus drug hoping for the best. all it seems to have done is make my head seem like its floating and make everything feel like it may not be completly clear. it no longer feels like it may explode but then again i don't know if i can feel my head.... which brings me back to the question, is it better to feel like crap or to feel nothing and not be able to think clearly.... hmmm which is better?

the bestest day ever!!

every female will tell you that there are a couple things that really important to her. in my case they are friends and shopping. two of my good friends and i got together and went on a 6 hour shopping extravaganza... this was great. my one friend scooby i hadn't seen for like 3 years and it was great to see her!!! what a day!! and its still going!! i love life

the time the skid came in.

i'm currently visiting my good, good, fiend meals! we are reminising about the good ol' day spent in sudbury. we are thinkin of making the 4hour drive tomorrow to relive the fun times we had. we will visit the townehouse, where alll the employee's took real good care of us. a lot of our good memories keep us going. the amount of dude's that had crushes on us, the way they took care of us, or how they gave us special treatment, or the fact that we were considered the "fun, safe" girls of the townehouse. this trip would go down in history as another stupid event that we thought up. if only we could turn back the clock and know what we do now.... there would be more guys that we would have made out with just for fun, and some guys that we would have just ignored all together. we wouldn't take back those days for anyting, but if we could do it all overagain, the guys is sudbury would be in a lot of trouble. how much fun would life be if we could go back and do somethings over again... and to the skid of the townehouse.... why would you cut your hair? now you can't be the skid.

steel toed boots

crap, lots of crap piled onto previous crap that was decaying every so smellily. that would be the best description of today's ever wonderful events. i just have one major problem that is still bothering me. why must gross guys leer? i was standing around a table at the work speaking with my boss about the current events of the our lives, when out of nowhere these construction guys walked by. most of the time i wouldn't pay much attention but my boss was like "hey manda that guy is checking you out" i was like cool until i turned and saw him, he wasn't looking at me he was leering, creepily leering at me. it was really weird, it was like he was trying his hardest to seduce me with his eyes but he had these beady little eyes that were creepy. i tried to ignore him but he wouldn't stop looking at me, he turned the corner still looking at me, it was like he had this radar that let him know where to turn and how to avoid other people, he just kept looking at me. why? why? why? why would guys think this is impressive. if you weren't so sketchy construction guy i would just tell you its much easier to make a good impression if you just walk up and say "hey." take the hint guys its more with the mouth and less with the eyes, and if i catch any other guys eyes gravitating to my ass or chest i will kick you with my steel toed boots.

frozen yogurt scam!

so today it only took 2 trips to timmys to get me through the day. a short nap in the afternoon helped me get through the rest of this grueling 14hour work day. but, there was one more thing that kept me going and that was knowing that at 11pm tonight when i stepped through my apartment door i could head straight for the freezer and get myself a huge bowl of chocolate frozen yogurt. i was beyond excited for this, who wouldn't be? all day long i focused on the bowl of frozen yogurt...mmmm...possibly with berries of some sort on top... i'm still drooling just thinking about it. well when i walked through the door this evening i made a bee line for that freezer and right away something was wrong i just knew it. i looked in the freezer and there were frosticles hanging from everything.... oh crap!! apparently my freezer door had been ajar today defrosting everything. so i thought that maybe it was still all good, no, no it wasn't my chocolate frozen yogurt is like soup..... crap! oh well the vanilla pudding i had instead was ok but another perfectly good day ruined by a stupid hiccup.

the classic hiccup

so, like any busy person its all about scheduling. making sure you have enough time to fit everything you need to do into the hours provided in one day. well that's what i do, you 64 hours to work this week, 56 hours after tonight 7 hour span between tonight and the start of my work day tomorrow so approx. 5.5 hours of sleep, great! that's just enough. all is going well the night was looking great, everyone happy, everyone doing what there suppose to do, just wait until 11pm and i'm out the door. until, 15min before departure and the hiccup occurs.... one person not doing what their suppose to and now its 40 mins past the time that i'm suppose to leave which means 40 mins less between work periods and 40 mins added to my already hectic work week. this now leaves me under 5 hours to sleep with 14 hours of work to put in tomorrow. will i make it? well of course. will i make it without timmy's? no, most likely not, i'm guessing that i'll visit timmy's at least 3 times tomorrow just to make up for this one hiccup. i don't even think that the 40 min of pay will make up for the 3 timmy's stops tomorrow. i especially love that i have only won 3 times rolling that rim when i've been there every day since it started, maybe the luck is just not with me. what a great start to a great week, now all i can hope for is that this hiccup will not be repeated at any other point during the week, and then i can pretty much be happy. now to go find that 4 hours sleep.

the first

so my friend tells me that the whole blogging thing is a great way to let out frustrations, or just to complain about your best friends without them ever knowing. well then sign me up!! no seriously this blog is going to be nothing special just a place to let loose, hey you don't know who i am so i'm not really going to hate you for anything you think about me.

so i leave my nice little apartment in like 29 days to head off to ireland for the trip of a lifetime. i officially have decided not to make any plans and just wing it when i get there, it seems too much trouble to worry about details right now. i may make a couple plans but nothing serious cause the plans will just change anyways. i'm excited to take off but i think i may be just as happy becoming hermit in my apartment as these crazie ass weeks of work like 64 hours will be the death of me. but seriously i picture myself a month from now sitting in some sketchy little pub with a whiskey watching some band and thinking to myself "this is the life!" and best of all i'll be making it on my own, and no one will know me. how great will that be?