does time stop when you enter a black hole?

its like i never left, the vactaion of my dreams never happened.... how can this be? where is all the fun? where are the good laughs and the laid back attitudes? i think really i just dont' belong here any more... i miss caring about the real things in life. i miss the idea's and opinions and the things that i was completly interested in in highschool... how did i ever become so passive? where did my passions go? if this is growing up, i'm defiently stopping, that's it tomorrow i'm going to revert back to my old self... you will notice, i'm sure... or maybe you won't...

where are the jobs?

it seems that any company or employer are looking for one of two things in an employee.... 1) they would like someone with at least 5 years experience, or 2) they want young blood straight from school with unbelievably specific training.... so it seems i'm up the creek either way... please where are all the jobs!

back in canada.... sadly

so i made it home yesterday... i'm a little sad, i really wanted to stay a little longer. it turns out the girl in belfast wasn't murdered... she just died mysteriously apparently. my last week in ireland was great fun, no dates with an irish guy, but lots of fun hanging out with relatives. if i had a choice i would find a job there, maybe i'll look for one. i'm exhausted from the travelling and the time difference and i'm having a hard time dealing with the lack of greasey, startchy foods. i'm sure my stomach will adjust sometime soon. my welcome home was great... a limo ride from lesley... you can say that an sunfire is like a limo when you see the size of cars in ireland, a great big beautiful sign from the family upstairs, and a fridge full of food from my mum... life is great!!!!

now work tomorrow... oh sad...

ok, here's a real post

so, i was at the hostel but couldn't check in for a couple hours so i went on a bus tour... much fun, the youngest by quite a few years. i was suppose to stay in belfast over night, but a slight incident at another hostel has prompted me to go back to the relatives instead.... seems that a girl was murdered last night... but do not worry i am ok, safe and secure. I just finished a bus tour of the city it was very educating... they are putting a big empahsis on peace here and its great to see.

so to catch up on the last week of events. I went out to the aran island of inishere... it was beautiful... gorgeous views of the main land and not very many people. there were rock walls everywhere i mean everywhere. so i spent two days on the island and had a great time with some guys from dublin... they were at least 20 years my senior but they were a blast. they took me out for dinner on the island... lets just say an island of 300people doesn't have very fancy dinning... pull up a stooll to the bar and that's as gourmet as its going to get. thursday morning i had to leave at 8am for the main land and i was looking forward to a grueling 8hour day of travel... sick! but my thank heavens i ran into a nice canadian girl and she was travelling the same way. we spent the whole day together laughing our butts off.... thank goodness, and we did some impulse shopping... i can't wait to show everyone my nice new irish hat.

yesterday i spent time meeting new relatives... it was a great day!!! so many happy people, so many people to remember, i'll be seeing them all this friday at a wedding party!! it should be a grand event. more people are making their way in, in a couple nights that i get to meet... fun times. some of my relatives are trying to set me up with a nice irish guy for the wedding... or maybe even a date... who knows.

so, everyone calm down all is good here on my end... i miss you all, and will be home in a week... which makes me a little sad.... i'm having such a great time.

i'm so, so, sorry this has taken so long to repost ,and the computer i'm on won't let me write anything besides a title, i'll get on another computer